In the early days after my conversion I was confused with the whole doctrine of election. All of my influences at that time were quasi-Arminian. Some would have said that eternal security was true, but none of my aquantances would ever concede to Calvinism. It was a taboo word. Calvinism was the "wrecker of churches" and the "doctrine of devils." They would say, "To say that God predestines people to hell is heresy." I even agreed that Calvinism seemed "unfair," because a just God would not show partiality—choosing some to have eternal life and others to have eternal damnation. It seemed to me, and those with whom I associated, that if Calvinism were true, the elect was some special group of people, probably people who bahaved better, because God chose them and not others.

As I grew in Christ and began reading the bible in totality, I found that I had many misconceptions with reference to election and Calvinism. I realized that it is not about God predestining people to hell. Everybody, especially myself, is worthy of hell from birth. We were all born depraved. If God were to be silent in regards to the affairs of men, and every person died and went to hell, God would be just. Yet God did actively participate in the affairs of men. He sent his own son, whose divinity is not in question, but his son poured himself out, humbled himself, became a man and died the shameful and painful death of a criminal so that grace may be extended on some. The focus should not be on God sending people to hell (for we send ourselves to hell), but the focus should be on God's grace being extended on people who are clearly undeserving of it. Therefore the Scriptures do not present a God who is unfair, but a God that is merciful!